Tuesday, February 17, 2009

shock and awe part 2

so for those of you who know me you are well aware that i'm a control freak. throw in a very unexpected fifth pregnancy and you have mental chaos! let me start by saying that it's not the baby i'm freaking out over... i love babies! i love giving birth, i love breastfeeding, i love raising kids. it's all the logistics that will make me crazy. how do you fit seven people in a two bedroom, one bathroom house? how will we fit three carseats, a booster and three other people in our van? how will i manage putting all five kids to bed alone each night while themr is working? how on earth will i give them all the attention they deserve when my husband is gone every day from 12-9? holy moly.... so many details. i spoke to my dr yesterday and i'll see him next week. they are estimating my due date around the end of august. um, is it just me or is that not very far away? i have to admit, the vane side of me is just a little peeved that i am finally down to my size 6 jeans and now i'm starting all over again. it figures... i am determined that i am not going to gain my usual 50-70 lbs this time. I'M NOT! yeah.. we'll see...

7 comments:

Ash said...

I know it sounds crazy but it will be great! You've always been wonder woman/mom and I know you will handle it all just fine. The care seat and bathroom thing will all be worked. God will provide for you guys. I'm so excited!!! You know you could always still go back to work and let me take care of the little people. : )
oh and I dreamt it was a girl. You aren't allowed to name her ava!

SassyMomma said...

YOu know I totally understand where you're coming from. I to have wondered if we have another baby someday,would we be able to make do with the things we have. 3 kids??... and I already have 2 sharing a room??? We would have to move. We CAN'T afford to move. (and I'm not even having another baby anytime soon.)
Now it would only be a 3rd baby not 5th... but still. It's scary. You don't really know what to expect.
I think you would be a little strange if you weren't feeling this way!
I'm sure everything will work out though! =)
And do you think this may have contributed to your anxiety issues you were having?

themrs said...

sassymomma- i think it had everything to do with the anxiety. i had started to think i was clinically depressed because i was so emotional and anxious. turns out i was pregnant the whole time, lol.

Adam said...

well if you need to i can buy you bulk bob evans stuff for cheap. you should get a limo

themrs said...

i told eli that i'll have to get my CDL lisence to drive all my kids around... maybe we'll get a short bus! i'll just feed them bob evans biscuits and gravy for every meal.

Ash said...

thank you abby. I could use every prayer I could get at this moment

Anya said...

Best wishes. I am really happy for you and wish you all the best!